Year 1993
Same, please.
Then she will come. - I don't know.
South America can't be bad.
Someone at work said it was cool.
Rest assured, I'm not going to be a whore.
Here or elsewhere, nothing changes for us.
What? - Nothing.
I know, I don't look.
I stink. I walked over here.
In high school I was really handsome. Do you believe me?
I thought I was ugly.
With everything they said about me, I felt bad.
The school was hell with those idiots.
They treated me like a scabby dog and that's how I felt.
I was beautiful.
The few boys I knew wanted to prostitute themselves.
Becoming a whore was their dream. For women.
I have not become a whore.
What do you have?
Nothing.
Are you taking me home? - No.
Anyway. I know you.
Where is your mother's car?
There, in the Odéon district.
Sure? We come from there.
No?
You're a loser.
It does come to mind...
You wanted to accompany me.
I will pay more attention.
You can also leave.
Go home.
Get lost.
Get lost! Do you like being with me or are you spying on me?
Just because I love you. - Stop that.
It sounds disgusting from your mouth.
Anyway,
we met five years ago.
And as you say, we have been seeing each other for three years now and again.
If I had to choose now, you could be the man of my life.
You don't need me, like me. But that does not bother me.
Maybe that imbalance pleases me.
I would rather see you happy, even far from me.
You taught me what goodness is.
"Goodness"? Damn it, Jacques!
Yes, goodness!
I am good when I am with you.
I am common to others. It's stronger than myself.
OK...
I let you.
I'm waiting for your call.
Come on, I'll give you a lift.
Come.
All alone? - Of course.
Otherwise I would have warned you.
Was he disappointing?
Not at all. It was a nice evening.
He's with friends. He can come later.
He does not, but that does not matter.
Is Loulou in bed? - He was there before 9 am and slept immediately.
Does he really love you? - You're crazy.
If you don't wonder,
you wait for men who do not even know your name.
Jean-Marie knows' m. - But the rest might not.
Did he read one of your novels?
No, and that's a happiness.
Of course.
Do we still smoke something?
I am going upstairs. I still have to write this article.
What is it about? - A conversation with an actress...
Who? - Who cares?
Géraldine Pailhas.
I love her. Read for.
Heroin smoking, okay, but hashish I fall asleep.
I don't have that. - I still have.
Do you have aluminum foil? - Yes.
Wait...
The creditors are after me.
I have to find work and very quickly.
My newspaper will not want to help you.
Not like you last chased them.
I don't want to work for snobs.
I'm not looking for a thinking.
Secretarial work or something.
Receptionist.
Receptionist is good.
But not easy to find.
Receptionists work at the newspaper.
One now works freelance.
I think she is now on the Business service.
For what wage?
6,000 francs. Minimum wage.
That is reasonable.
Why do you go out and eat with Jean-Marie when you are broke?
Even poor, I stay above my class.
Is your father not coming to Paris next week?
Yes. Asshole.
Even though he fills my well, I still can
not afford a posh bank.
35 years and I have been sentenced to Ikea.
I can't buy anything better.
Would it be better with a nice couch?
You understand what I mean.
Not always.
Is it your father's fault that you are still dependent on him?
I wonder.
I did not mean that as an attack.
I would not bet on it...
But you're right. It is not my business.
This is Jacques Tondelli. Leave a message.
I again.
It's late, but I had hoped you would call.
I tried it at 21:00.
I wanted to talk to you, but you're busy.
Or you're on the move.
Bad luck.
I'm in bad shape, Jacques.
It's the end...
It's fucking to say it.
But my legs have failed.
I walk like an old man.
I removed my stiletto heels. So it is hopeless.
Anyway,
I will not whine on your device.
I have to ask you for a favor.
Tomorrow I will be admitted to the hospital. A few days, they say.
But after that...
I don't know where to go.
Thierry does not want to see me anymore.
I keep messing up.
Going back to my parents in Clermont...
I dont like the idea. I don't want to die there.
You had suggested that you come to stay with you from time to time.
Except if it bothers.
I would understand that.
I am ashamed to ask you.
I can't ask Thierry anything more.
I talk too much.
Kisses.
I hope until tomorrow.
It was Marco, but you knew that.
It would be a big mistake.
I know.
What are you doing there? - I had to pee.
You don't urinate at one o'clock in the morning.
Quickly return to your room.
I'm going to finish my article.
don't call me. - I know.
I wish you were sleeping here tonight. - No question, madam.
Why not? - You don't have a single novel.
THE CATS BOOK
Just hold on.
"How do you live with your cat?"
Are you crazy?
You could have hurt me.
Leave me alone. - Sorry.
In that case, I prefer to stay here.
I don't intend to stay here.
"The Gods are thirsty". Damn!
I mean, Arthur.
I want to spend the night with you.
But I want to spend it with myself.
You're a loser. - Perhaps.
Can you get along? The others are already there.
Go ahead, hurry!
The other eye. You look like a one-eyed panda.
May I pulse to your intentions?
Those of me are clear. - I did not ask you anything.
A few kisses... - I did not ask you anything!
The few kisses at dawn are not enough.
Are we in love or not?
Okay, okay.
We are not in love, and so we should not tongue kiss.
Can I sign a receipt somewhere?
Not that game... - What?
Is he going to hit? - I could do that.
We stay here tonight.
Maybe the rest of our lives, honey.
Give me those keys.
How old are you? - Careful...
Got you. - Ready?
Where were you? We've been looking for you everywhere.
I was lost.
I kissed an Amandine tonight. It was the first time.
Where will we be within 10 years?
I will give history to a technical school.
And you? No idea.
We will not be anything.
I heated up the cassoulet. - Awesome.
What is that?
Pierre, I'm making a detour.
don't worry.
Thanks. - Keys on the board, please.
Is the room as desired?
Yes thank you.
The theater is at 100 meters.
They are working on the technique. They said you could come to that.
As planned. Forward.
Honestly, the hotel is acceptable on the edge.
I come all the way here and you put me in it.
Is it the room? - Of course!
I will not be able to sleep in that landfill.
The theater always sends the authors there.
Authors?
You would never let Vinaver or Yasmina Reza stay there.
You are not in it for nothing.
I'm not here for my pleasure.
I am invited, but I also have work to do.
And my room stinks of bleach.
It's here, is not it? - The entrance is there.
Wait. I go through the ribbon when I go straight in.
can't I slip in?
Yes.
Will you let me in?
And you can tell them...
whatever you want.
Look at the movie.
Move aside.
Is he good?
Yes a bit...
It looks like a picture book.
Then you better get away.
I considered that to you.
Are you staying with me? - Yes.
Life involves more surprises than a movie.
Especially these.
Are you saying something to strangers?
I spoke for my turn.
Life is stupid than films.
Yes, films always doubt their own stupid story.
They are wrong.
How old are you?
22.
And who are you?
I like to read.
I see.
First of all
I hate your generation because they are smarter than we were.
You don't get anywhere with flattery.
No, I mean it.
I blame you.
But you might be disappointed by the light of day.
Are we leaving?
No, you stay.
It's a good movie. You are crazy if you don't see it.
But if you feel like it,
around 11 pm,
and if you have nothing better to do,
Then come to the theater, and then we will see each other again.
You are not going to the restaurant?
I have to work for another hour or two.
To which? - Always the same novel.
Do we have breakfast together tomorrow?
Schatjes, Jacques is leaving.
Give me a kiss.
See you soon. - Day.
Congrats. - Are you really not staying?
Go away. Out of my eyes.
Tasty.
For the hotel you have to go to the avenue Janvier...
I just have to follow the smell of bleach.
The hotel is neat. - Good evening.
All alone? Not with the rest?
No, I'm tired.
How do you feel?
It goes, no complaints.
Did you know that I had jaundice?
Actually hepatitis. Very serious.
Where is your hotel? - That way.
I went home for my birthday.
I had a fever, but I had to feel good.
In order to give me courage, I drank like a Templar.
Champagne, white wine, red...
I stuffed myself with oysters, vol-au-vent, cheese, babas with rum...
Mommy was in the clouds. I did not speak about politics
and ate my food. The perfect birthday boy.
That night I exhausted everything again.
I fainted in the bathroom and cut my elbow.
Sutures on the pitch.
And the diagnosis: hepatitis.
I had to spend the night there. A nightmare.
I was in a room with homeless people, a child in a steel lung...
It was hell and then I thought of you. I said to myself:
"Like Jacques, I pay for my mistakes."
I got a sermon about my weight.
With you that is the number of partners.
It was inhuman.
Only you can understand something like that.
Are you healed? - Yes, it's over.
It was nine weeks ago.
I think so...
No, actually it's been a long time ago.
It was three months ago.
My bad liver can still bother me.
A baba with rum and hop, to the rush.
You can eat anything with your aids.
We are there, this is my hotel.
You look good however.
I have to confess to you that I stop.
I participated in the casting, but I will not be back.
Does the rest already know?
Forget about the rest. I wanted to tell you personally.
Are you mad? - No.
Anyway, I'm sure. You are so polite.
The polite M. Aids.
Or we can all put your back on.
No, not that, the pot on or...
Do I get annoying? I am gone.
Day.
Rest well. And write a new piece for me.
I will do that. - Something dramatic.
OK? Take care of yourself.
Are you taking me upstairs? - No.
I will not impose that on you.
May I?
We can go to my flat.
My roommate will not be back yet.
Okay, I'm following you.
It's pretty far.
I got all the time.
I am still running well, given my condition.
Welcome. - Very nice.
Not exaggerate.
This side.
Damn!
What? - Quiet.
They came back to make dinner.
Who are they?
No idea. Pierre, my roommate and...
I can't get you into my room unseen.
OK.
Do we see it?
No. Do you want that?
Would you rather not be with your friends?
I see them every day.
I have a car.
What for?
Every weekend I go to my mother, at the sea.
Are we going there?
No, we can go somewhere else.
A ride and what do you feel in a parking lot?
No. We can go to Mont Saint-Michel.
We are there in one and a half hour.
It's still early. We leave,
we talk, we listen to music,
sleeping in the car...
and at dawn we look at the sunrise in each other's arms.
Are you serious?
don't you like Mont Saint-Michel?
No idea. I have never been there.
But to see the sun rise
in the arms of a Breton student
might be something too sentimental for me.
Then you don't feel like me?
Still, you are mistaken.
Do you keep doing so formally?
Perhaps.
I am not of the same age and I must remain vigilant.
You are cheeky.
Come here.
No smoking in my room.
What do you do as work?
I thought you knew that, sir.
You can do a lot in a theater.
You said that you liked to read.
And then?
Nothing.
What do you do to earn a living?
I am headed for my downfall.
No really. - For real.
I am actually a writer.
My name is Jacques Tondelli.
For real?
I have heard about you, but I have never read anything.
And I thought I met a fan.
You can sometimes be mistaken.
I usually read deceased writers.
Then you don't have to wait much longer.
Are you Jacques Tondelli?
Yes.
That's funny.
Not really. We have to order.
Two sandwiches with fries and...
A beer?
Yes. - Two, please.
Thank you.
I am...
a boy who moved to Paris...
from Meurthe-et-Moselle.
I am a boy who was willing to sleep with everyone
who could help his career.
But there were not many.
I'm a boy who often went out at night...
A boy who was not loved by his parents,
his sister or his brother.
I am no longer a boy, but a man who still thinks he's a boy.
A man who survived a pneumocystosis.
A man who knows why he is afraid of endoscopies.
A man who thinks that nobody is new in his life
and don't complain about that.
But that man thinks
that he returns after the war
for another life after this life,
where he will be the same, but with even more charm
and in which he will walk more determinedly through the streets at night.
What about you?
I am too young to remember what I am.
You don't respect the rules,
M. Arthur.
I am a boy of 15 who was woken up at 5 am on a Saturday
in his boarding school
and was taken to a residential area
60 km away.
He felt completely lost
until he saw about twenty cars standing in front of his parental home.
What happened?
My father had just died
on the road between Rostrenen and Carhaix.
I returned to the school in Carhaix.
I took that away from school to home for three years.
I was hoping for three years
that my father would crawl out of a ditch would swing...
and would take me away.
But no.
He stayed dead.
13th arrondissement?
That is in the north?
No.
I share an answering machine, be elliptical.
Elliptical, I can.
OK...
Okay okay okay.
No last...
So nothing? - Nothing.
Go home.
I'm not tired yet.
I have to get up early tomorrow.
You're never going to call me for sure?
I think so.
Go ahead, get out.
Are you going to write me too?
I'm going in now.
I'll hang around here, just in case you think up.
My room is hardly big enough for me.
I can make myself very small.
I'd like to believe that.
Good night. - Good night. It's late.
Good night. Over there.
I am gone.
Loulou, I asked you half an hour of rest. That must succeed.
I am. I forgot my pills.
Come in.
It's no trick to see your dick.
I'm not looking.
Idiot. Are you sure? I did not see them.
They are mine.
Look. Is not that box?
Up there?
What a stupid bitch.
Wait... - No don't bother.
Damn...
Is it annoying when I swallow your bath mat? - No.
Do I ask Loulou to bring your breakfast here?
I have not had a bath since autumn. - For real?
Yes. - Come here.
No, I'm fine here.
Dirt, on your bath mat.
Come here, I say. - No!
Come on!
don't! don't pull! - Hurry up!
Come on.
That hurts.
See you.
Loulou, are you closing the door, please?
I want to make your life easier.
That is a difficult task.
Especially for you.
How do you mean?
It is not your specialty.
You are better at complicating.
You think? - Yes.
But you are sweet.
You are just a "complex person".
Do you mean that I made our relationship difficult?
You've got guts. - I'm not saying anything.
I have not asked myself such questions for a long time.
"Difficult our relationship..."
You may not realize it,
and without wanting to hurt you, but you've hurt me badly.
Is that funny?
You were strong.
You are still that.
What made me more difficult?
Where does that mania come from always talking?
Why do you always want to talk?
When we were together, you found me unworthy to speak.
Did you do it anyway, then you pulled a face.
You impressed me. - No.
You always thought I was a bitch.
And you were right.
A little...
You did not want to talk, fucking was enough.
I was crazy.
Stiff, you mean.
Come on.
Soon we will both be stiff.
Enjoy it. - Stop!
It is too late to die young.
Our schedule is shitty.
Have you thought about how you want it?
Did you write it down?
No.
I'm going to do it again. - Of course.
don't let them bury me in Clermont.
If you don't write it down, they decide.
Ideally they would not know.
If you die in a hospital, we have no choice.
Then we leave earlier.
For the last hospital.
We can't miss the boat.
You have what you need?
And you? - Yes.
don't use it before I take it.
We can still see that.
In that area I don't have to be a gentleman.
You have Loulou. You have to hold on to him.
This bathtub conversation was fun...
I'm sure you will continue to bite.
You will heal.
The first French jerk that thought to die,
but it did not.
Will the nation thank me?
I don't think so.
They want us to go quietly.
It will not change if we continue to live.
I'm cold. - I'll sprinkle you.
No. - It will warm you.
This is fun. - I'm cold.
It's fun. - No, that's not it. I'm cold.
Come on.
This is going to be hell. - Wait.
I calmly put you right.
Hold on to the edge.
I can do it alone. - No, let's do it.
My God...
I'm going out first.
Still coffee? - A little.
You said you were not in love.
We are not.
I do, a little.
Are you in love with him? - Yes.
But not you? - No.
I have pain everywhere. I don't want to be in love anymore.
No one.
I just want to close my eyes and find peace.
I don't understand.
You said you came to live here as a friend.
Indeed. And that's the way it is. - Liar.
don't listen to him.
He can't admit that he needs us.
Why are not you in love with Daddy? - Why?
I am in love, but not on your dad.
I am in love with Thierry.
You've already seen him, are not you?
He is cool. - Yes, that's him.
I go back to him and then you have your room.
Who says he wants you back?
He told me myself.
I leave you alone.
When did you tell me?
What?
I don't have to, I'm telling you now.
I'll be gone within a few days.
You don't have to wait.
He can pick you up today. It's Sunday.
He is not there this weekend.
Ah, so this is a hotel here.
We give you food, we wash you, put you in bed. Is that so?
Did not I thank you enough?
The pot with your thanks. I don't have to.
I am in the living room. - OK.
I want respect.
Yes, respect.
You could have told me. Did you call him?
Yes, he came by. - Here?
He brought me clean clothes.
That guy was here in my house?
Loulou!
Come. - I'm here.
We're going to eat with your mama.
Is your book bag ready?
All your stuff?
You also stay with her.
We see each other Tuesday and Thursday.
I take my book for sciences...
I don't need to know your timetable.
Hurry up, we will leave immediately.
Quiet.
Hurry.
I don't think we'll see each other again.
You are a great child.
You become... - Stop that, please.
Come.
Day.
Hello, Eugénie.
Loulou, we are already too late.
Hold it in front of me.
Thank you.
Are we taking him? - It's your car.
Day.
I'm going to Rennes. - Get in.
See if there is room in the suitcase.
"Get in..."
Turn me off before the Boy Scout gets out, okay?
Promised.
You broke my record: less than 5 minutes.
Sorry, we could not be faster.
Where do you live? - The campus of Villejean.
Bad luck...
I'm Stéphane. And you?
Arthur. - Nadine.
Anastasia.
What do you study?
Psychology. Flower arranging and divination.
Pharmacy.
And you, Arthur?
It has been so long since I started to class that I have forgotten.
Are not you tired of bragging yet?
Are you from Loudéac? - Yes.
I work in the summer camp.
The adventure camp in Binic?
Did you go there as a child?
My sister was a supervisor 10 years ago.
Françoise Cloarec.
That was for my time. I am the director.
Are not you too young for that?
You must be 21.
It's my second year.
It is fascinating, working with children.
Yes, it's fascinating.
It's playful.
Do you need my eyes? - What?
don't mind me. - What?
I'm looking at you. - I have done nothing.
I am not retarded.
Do you want a towel? - No, it's okay.
I'm going to freshen up.
Stay down.
Can I record? - Go ahead.
It is strange to hear you.
Am I interrupting? - I had given up all hope.
I have been busy.
Did you get my postcards?
Yes thank you. Sorry I did not reply.
There is somebody. Can I call back?
Who is it? - Someone I just met.
And already jumped? - Perhaps...
Do you think you are in love? - That could be.
You are ultrasentimental.
I know who I have to do with. Can I call back?
What does he look like?
Blond.
A "Maxim's"?
Still no "Wrong Blond"?
I don't understand anything about it.
don't know the difference between a "Maxim's" and a "Wrong Blond",
a "Whitman" or a "Vondelpark"?
For real? - For real.
What do you read that you know so little?
Shall I explain it or do you have to go to your undefined blonde guy?
You have five minutes.
Okay, your blond boy will not be "Maxim's".
Someone who seems ideal at first sight,
which is welcomed without prior checking.
"Try Maxim's," said Isherwood, who loved such illusions.
I am young, remember?
Why don't young and illusion go together? Anyway...
You don't want Ginsberg's definition of a "Whitman" either.
He thought back to his lovers and went back to their former relationships,
and he could link them to Walt Whitman's lover.
Do you know Walt Whitman? - No. This is humiliating.
I have to fill your library, kitten. Walt Whitman,
the first great American poet.
Someone like Rimbaud in France.
No. A "Rimbaud" is not a "Whitman".
Do you have a minute?
Are you still there?
A "Whitman" is widespread.
You soon realize that he slept with everyone.
A widespread homosexual orgy that goes back to Adam and Eve.
Write down everything? - Yes really.
Idiot.
Now, a rarer specimen,
which I prefer, admittedly, the "Vondelpark".
Named after examples that I met in the Amsterdam park.
Will you take me there someday? - Concentrate, please.
He looks like a survivor from the 70s,
a Scandinavian type?
He's blond with a nice ass.
Blondness is not enough.
The "Vondelpark" is not a fashion doll.
He has a slightly corrupt, unperturbed appearance.
A confused side.
He is rather an ordinary Breton than a superficial Scandinavian.
Then it's a "Wrong Blond",
according to Auden's definition of Chester Kallmann in 1939.
I pretend you know Auden.
Of course I know him.
Auden had become fond of a blonde when he arrived in America.
One Walter Miller.
Miller worked for a literary magazine with another blonde, Chester.
Chester contacted Auden for an interview.
Auden gave him an appointment in the hope that he would come
with the coveted Miller.
When the blonde Chester came alone,
went Auden, disappointed,
to Isherwood in the next room,
they were roommates,
and whispered:
"It's the wrong blonde."
And as a good biographer would say:
Chester would be the only possible blonde for Auden.
I understand.
"Maxim's", a dream image. "Whitman", the man who does it with everyone.
"Vondel", not for others, ideal for you. - Exactly.
And the "Wrong Blond", a thunder in clear skies.
That is in general, young man.
What am I to you?
Clearly a "Whitman".
A slut?
It hurts that you think so.
What else should I think?
You hardly know me.
Prove me that I am wrong in you.
I must let you.
No, put your useless blonde at the door and call me.
Hello, Jacques. I hope you save.
Bad news?
Quite.
Shall I leave?
What do you want? - Am I interrupting?
Can it wait?
It's urgent. Are you not alone?
That's what it looks like.
Do I know him?
I'm going to close the door. - Wait.
Can I borrow your car?
Now? - Yes.
Wait here.
Good evening.
I am a friend of Mathieu.
I did not know he was called Mathieu?
He's around the corner.
There is not much petrol left. Are you going far?
Reasonably far. I draw my plan.
Reasonably far? don't put it away for miles. I need it.
I'm going to the far West. I'm not back immediately.
There are things in it. - Then go get them.
If I get rid of you like that...
I don't like to borrow my car, that's clear.
How far west do you go?
You can worry if I go east,
but the west stops at the ocean.
Are you crazy?
Come on. I'm going to visit my strange Breton.
Wait a second.
That's something for me.
Where does your twink come from? He looked very muscular.
You're not bored.
Have you known him for a long time?
That depends on my portfolio. He's a whore.
For real? - You know that.
I'm with a guy like him? I pay for his muscles.
Do you have the info you wanted?
I swear I thought he was your dancer.
He does not dance. - OK. Pay attention.
I pay attention and I do not need your advice.
Are you going to teach me something about prevention? Save that for your Breton cousin.
How do I know you're fucking on Sunday night?
Go now. Leave me alone.
Are not you coming with me? You are dressed to go to the sea.
Swimming is not on the menu.
The gasoline... - I like to see you.
You get fleas from petting dogs. - Give me a hug.
Are we already hugging? - You need it.
You're crazy.
Frightening how you communicate lately.
Disdainful piece of shit.
Understood? Pang pang, rabbit!
What is going on?
You are dead! Pang pang, rabbit!
You are dead!
What are those? Bullets!
They deviate, to the right and left.
Pang pang, rabbit!
The nearest rabbits are hit!
It's a disaster! What is happening?
The strategy does not work anymore! Pang Pang!
You are dead!
At full moon the Great Wizard summons the dads of the rabbits!
And the moms!
And the babies!
I'm on my way to my cousins.
Great, but I'm busy. First bedtime, then meeting...
Prepare! - I can wait for you.
We are rarely ready before midnight.
Do I get a kiss from you? - No.
Sleep tight.
From the first aid post.
The sleeping bag center for bed-wetting.
They are washed daily,
but there may still be a smell of children's piping.
You're disgusting.
And I stole some cider. Interested? - Yes.
And? - What?
You are not here to talk about pedagogy.
We are still friends.
Friends visit each other.
I am for courtesy visits. Health.
Seen my royal residence?
When you finally talked to me,
you said that you were also interested in boys.
So I wondered...
When we were together, when I thought we were,
do you have... Listen. I'm trying to talk.
Were you actively interested then
Or was it just an idea?
Should we talk about that? - Yes, I think so.
Good.
I tricked you with a few guys.
You will not agree, but since they were boys,
it was not really deceiving.
Alright...
And for me, were you gay at the time?
Yes. I've been deceiving people with boys for a while.
Sorry if I come across narrow-minded...
Why go out with people like me when you make love with people like them?
Because until recently I only fell in love with girls.
To your boy scout?
Not at Stéphane. I did not sleep with him.
Arthur... - You imagine things.
I'm not free with every gay person. I am not a geilard.
Who is the "until recently"?
We talked well.
Will we be spoiled and kissed?
I don't want French kissing.
But the enthusiasm of your weak heart fascinates me.
It would help if you pour your heart at a third,
or not? That was an endless thought.
Come on.
I met a Parisian.
We met in Rennes.
He's a writer.
Since that one time we have contact via letters and the telephone.
He does not care about me,
but I can make him change his mind.
What is his name? - Jacques.
Is he the same age as our parents?
The pot on.
Yes, he is 10 or 15 years older than me.
He is jumping you?
Damn, I don't answer that.
Honest,
Imagine that you do something like that with a man...
that is a test for me.
Why do you imagine?
Did you picture Pierre or Fabrice doing it?
Save me your nonsense.
I remember together.
All right, but what can I say?
Enjoy it.
I told my parents. - What? Klote, why?
No idea. I felt bad.
I had to talk to someone. But it's okay.
It's not okay. Your parents...
Did you have to say it? - Yes.
They are going to say it to my mother in a pitiful way.
"Mrs. Prigent, we know about your son."
Are you stupid or what?
I regretted it afterwards.
They can keep their mouth shut. - I hope so.
Damn, what's that noise?
They are still waking up the whole camp. Stay here.
I'll be right back. - Sorry.
"M. the Director,
don't insist, I'm not going to the far West soon.
You lie. I know that it rains several times a day
and that the young are deformed by the pancakes and the buttermilk.
If you miss me, come to Paris.
Once you have to leave your country and try your luck here.
You will not become a filmmaker there.
You would be the Breton Pagnol
(which is actually not bad).
Return to your model boats but, since you're so fond,
my two hands are at your disposal,
as well as my tongue and my tail.
Parisian cushion on your slightly salted skin. Jacques."
Are you happy now?
Do you find it funny?
Estelle too?
There is dinner and dinner.
Your situation brings the safety of the children
under your wing in danger.
Can you not set limits?
And think about the neighbors.
And now everyone is calm.
Understood?
Is the planning ready for tomorrow?
Why did not you want to stay?
That guy was out for a fight.
Was he not your type? I bet he was well equipped.
Jacques, go back. I'm going to watch the whores.
Do you have scruples for me?
That would be wrong.
I'm tired of playing the big brother.
I feel like a brute.
Are you counting on me? - I have no expectations.
Shall I beat you? - Why not?
OK...
Have you already been counted? - No, I'm coming.
A writer must make people happy.
Rather than what? - Always complaining.
I don't do that. - Quit it.
Since when do you read my work?
Here and there.
I don't really care.
Recuperated?
Yes.
Can I beat you again? - Not in the same place.
Eyes down.
Eyes down!
I like this game.
I can take revenge for what you let me do.
For real?
What are you going to do?
You know people love you.
Stop that.
I could never hurt you.
Pack, a gift.
If you need me, burn yourself and I'll come.
Not exaggerate. The magic will not always work.
That's a devilish gift.
We did well to leave. - I smoke it.
Good evening.
I have to call Mathieu urgently.
Something with Loulou? - I don't know.
Ask if you can call.
Can I use your phone? - Yes.
Thank you.
Number one.
Please.
Tell. Is there something with Loulou?
Where is he?
Did you see H im?
No... My train is tomorrow at 6 o'clock.
OK. Day.
Marco is dead.
Come here for a hug.
I'm going to make a detour.
Is everyone there?
Martin! - Present.
Angelo!
Magdalena!
You wait until he leaves? - Of course.
And you write every day. And you were every day.
And change every day of girlfriend. - agreed.
Hello, boy.
Louis! - That's you.
Louis Tondelli! - He is coming...
Louane!
Why don't you go to Dijon?
I go to the parents of Mathieu in Normandy.
We leave this afternoon.
For the weekend? - Yes.
Are you sure?
I bet you will be alone in Paris for two weeks,
to be permanently depressed. - It's my life.
Yes.
Are you currently registering? - Yes and no.
About what? - Still the founder of Belfort.
don't make a hero of it.
I make a stupid flicker, and that is not a killer.
His foolishness killed 15 people.
Are you free? - Yes.
Do I have to write about my life? - No.
See. - Okay, I'll be silent.
Damn... The camera of Loulou.
Enter here. - Why?
I'll do it for him on the bus. - Are you sure?
Yes. - Great, because I don't have time anymore.
OK. You may leave. - Say goodbye to Mathieu and his parents.
OK. And enjoy your Dijonerie.
Bring the camera to the post. - Yes I will.
I am M. Cairo. I had an appointment at 11 o'clock.
We have not waited for you.
Sorry.
Have a seat. I'll see if you can do it in between.
Press your back against it.
don't move.
Arms a little sideways.
Inhale breathing and don't move.
M. Tondelli? - Here.
I apologize. Day. This way, please.
To the left? - No, here.
Look at my ear.
Look here.
So... You have an annoying virus.
The cytomegalovirus.
That causes fever.
Even without the eye examination, you must be admitted as soon as possible
for a series of tests:
biopsy, endoscopy, colonoscopy under complete anesthesia.
I also want to check your lung capacity.
It will be intense, but fast.
A couple of days.
And then we see further.
I can record you today. - No, not today.
We can't delay.
I give you a week.
A week then.
Then I put you on two infusions per day for two weeks.
Good.
And... what with...
my stomach pain?
I think that fear plays a role.
Do you think you are getting weaker?
Let's say...
that I am full...
suicide thong.
I will tell you something.
Pills that help you sleep,
on top of the painkillers.
You may not believe it, but you are doing reasonably well.
The weight loss is not worrying,
your T4s are low, but your body is strong.
It's an ally.
It's me.
Sorry. - Arthur?
I am Mathieu, a friend of Jacques. Come on in.
Jacques is not there. Here are the keys.
He says you can't stay overnight tomorrow night.
His sister comes unexpectedly.
You have to find a solution.
Do you know where?
No. I need to think about it.
You can stay until 3 pm tomorrow.
The big key is from the front door. The small of the flat.
That's all.
don't forget to leave the keys. His sister also has a set.
can't I see him? - No, he's gone for a week.
Put your bag down.
Make yourself at home.
A bottle... - Chouching.
It's like, is not it?
I can't stay too long.
Will it go?
Do you know Paris?
I am alone here for the first time.
Nice. Plan?
The Center Georges Pompidou and an ACT UP meeting...
tonight.
Perfect.
Right and left bank.
In Paris you have to cross the Seine every three hours.
OK...
I have to work. I already have a delay.
Can I reach Jacques? - No.
But he will call sometime. Pick up.
Good to meet you, Arthur. - Thanks.
I am gone.
Ready.
How was he?
Physical? - No.
Was he suspicious? Disillusioned?
How could he not be?
And physically?
I thought he was more handsome.
Yes...
Does he know where to go tomorrow night?
He does find something.
What is he going to do today?
He goes to the Center Georges Pompidou,
and then to an ACT UP meeting.
ACT UP? Does he know people there?
No idea.
For a Breton fagot in Paris
an ACT UP meeting is just as exciting as the catacombs.
He is not allowed to attend the ACT UP meeting.
Let him go. Do you want to take care of him?
No, but I don't want him to be hurt.
Hurt at ACT UP?
I'm getting tired of you, Jacques.
I think it's fucking.
Also go to ACT UP and stop navel gazing.
There are many people sick and they are fighting. But you...
Damn it, you're baling me.
I am at the newspaper until 8 pm.
Since you live here now, you can make dinner for tonight.
Something tasty.
Fish with curry sauce. - Forget it.
Do effort.
If I don't smell curry, you can go to sleep elsewhere.
No Center Pompidou?
What are you doing here?
I know, I urge myself.
It is not the time.
Do you want to be alone? Or did you meet with someone?
I am in Paris for you.
I followed you from my home.
I lied. As you can see, I am not far from Paris.
I am with Mathieu, my neighbor.
OK...
The idea of two nights with you in my flat
seemed too heavy to bear.
I was glad you suggested it, but...
What do you want me to say?
I became depressed.
I can no longer relate to,
dreaming of a life that does not come, or of a love affair...
It is out of my reach.
I don't want to end up as a dreamer.
I have principles and they always get the upper hand.
I warned you that I had nothing to offer.
I can't be together with someone.
I just know how to be alone.
And it is a bad moment.
I get two infusions per day
and tomorrow they put a catheter in my chest.
It's stupid, but that thing in my chest
makes me feel like I can never undress myself with a man.
I thought about being clean. I never thought I would get excited again.
I would just read.
End as a reader?
Exactly.
And then you came with your stuff
and it should have been as I thought, but it did not work.
No...
I heard you leave this afternoon.
Yes? - All singing.
Why are you such a person who walks in the street singing?
can't you be the more silent, shy type?
And then I noticed you...
On the corner, eating.
And I found you
very suitable.
On that terrace in the sun,
eating with a cigarette in your female hand
that went through your hair...
And I thought...
I'm not ashamed of it. I thought, "He's my last Vondel."
don't wait for me, Arthur.
don't ask yourself how you can bring me back to life.
But I would like you to come to sleep with me.
Alright. There we go. From the beginning.
Ready? - Again?
We can also talk?
Come on. - I'm tired of the choreography.
Come on.
Come. - Here we go.
We will let this pass. - I'll let it pass.
I like you to count.
One two three four...
We started too soon.
We have not started, but bad.
It's not bad.
If the teacher does not already know the song...
The box. - The powder.
Give me your hand. This one.
I stand in front.
Unbelieveable. You again in front.
That laugh...
And now...
The tangine part.
Now backwards.
Forward... Sideways...
I forgot the twist.
We are drunk.
Come here, you.
Promenade...
Not so.
Come here, you.
Look into the eyes.
And now...
Cigarette.
Here we go. - Two.
Well done.
Back behind me. You're a nuisance.
Smoking usually takes longer.
Take over, I've had enough.
Come on, Arthur. Concentrate.
don't sulk. - To concentrate. Three four...
I never understood why
so many people talk about their youth
after sex.
They complain and whine
because they find themselves as adults
that their youth was not what they wanted.
It was not innocent at all.
It is the same that complain
that you are free with their bodies, not with their souls.
I am disgusted by their complacency.
Arthur, stop drinking.
It's liquid honey.
I need sugar. I am not yet fully grown, gentlemen.
You can distinguish the drinkers from Chouchen
by the way they go to the ground after a while.
They fall straight down. In one go.
It must be fun.
I'm not that far yet.
I am still flexible.
Quiet.
A squaw in the forest.
Be careful!
Watch out for my table.
Who is talking to you about their abused youth?
Everybody. It's like she's me
to blame their foolish youth.
It's always the same. They make love out
and then they seek a statement,
a nice pleasant reason.
They make love, but never of their own free will.
It is always the others who exploit their vulnerability
or their brittleness as a result of the abuse in their youth.
Some flickers are very good at it.
Damn.
Be proud and happy that your body is cheering.
Sex is no less noble than feelings, it is as simple as that.
And forget your childhood.
If homosexuals are honest, they admit that they don't lose anything by making love.
Making love is winning something, never losing anything.
You are less sentimental than you are.
I am sentimental.
Ultrasentimental, as you once said.
The gaze of others scares me.
How can they find me attractive?
But...
As soon as we get closer and touch each other,
I don't understand why they don't fall in love.
I keep my mouth shut. I am not calling:
"Have you seen the child that sleeps in me?"
I am glad that my life is accelerating
when a guy looks at me, but...
I would never bother him
with memories of frozen blows on the playground.
I'm not sure if I can still follow you.
I am drunk and I am babbling.
That comes from the verb babbling. "Mixing together".
Bretons can be idiots.
Or not, Parisians?
As we can do idiot, there are none.
His message seems very clear to me.
I was not talking about you, you don't cry when you make love.
I meant it in general.
I can also talk in general, don't you?
I have an opinion about gays.
A well-founded. - For real?
First, it's all crying.
His peers find sex on a toilet rancid. Get rid of them.
It's not shameful,
it's a chance for adventure,
grasped in passing, without any idea what will happen
and therefore you feel more alive.
It will be a concern to me if you smell piss.
Come on, the smell is nothing compared to the kick you get.
Gays who avoid toilets are those who never read.
Literature is not spent on them.
My big ideas.
don't you think they are good?
You look like fried fish.
My little angel...
No general ideas for you.
Only special.
I don't have anything special to say to you tonight.
Or very much.
I want to tell you I'm here and...
You don't have to pretend you are already dead, and don't hide your loneliness.
I always wanted everything,
but I can also be very happy with little.
You can go home better.
I am sick of your outpourings.
Are not we sleeping here?
Certainly not.
When should you be in the hospital?
At 8 o'clock in the morning.
Will I order a taxi at the expense of the newspaper?
Very thoughtful of you, my dear friend.
Thanks, but I'm taking my scooter.
I want to sleep with you.
Even though we don't make love.
Put on your pajamas, young man.
Arthur, you have to sleep...
can't I take you in front of your friend?
I leave you.
No. - Yes.
No...
Okay, I'm opening the box.
I close them. Short tango.
Cigarette...
I push the cigarette out.
INFECTIOUS DISEASES
Jacques?
Day.
Are you looking for Jacques?
Yes. - I'm Isabelle.
This is Loulou.
He can come back any time from radiology.
Can I wait with you? - Of course.
What is your name?
Arthur. A Breton friend. I'm in Paris for a few days.
Have you heard about us?
No.
Jacques shares his life.
Loulou is his son. I am the mother of his son.
I'm not his wife, just a girlfriend. The mother of his son.
Are you the son of Jacques?
I don't want.
It's okay, honey. Dad will be happy to see you.
I don't want to see him here. Can I wait outside?
don't bother now.
Loulou!
I can watch your son and come back later.
That is friendly. Thanks.
Can you bring my bag?
Is Loulou your real name?
It's Louis, but everyone says Loulou.
What do you choose? - I prefer Louis.
Have you already told them that? - No, but Loulou does not bother me.
I'm Arthur.
I know, you already said that. Like Rimbaud.
Do you already know Rimbaud?
We learned a poem from him at school. - "The Sleeper in the Valley"?
I don't know the title anymore.
"At four o'clock on a summer morning
The sleep of love lurks further..."
I did not learn that at your age.
Were you home with us?
With your father, yes.
Did you sleep in my bed?
I have not seen your room.
I'll show you next time. It's the biggest room.
When are you with your father?
Normally every other day.
You see each other all the time.
Do you see that woman there with the box?
There are pussies in it.
Does she give the pussies away?
I think they're for a patient,
but they will not let her in.
Or maybe...
she sells them to experiment with.
You are insane.
Your son and your friend hold kittens.
I feel a disaster coming.
I will not take home a kitten.
Jacques!
Damn...
Excuse me!
Bye dad.
don't say that. - Slept well?
What did you do today?
Been here and there.
You have a fever. Bretons have a cure for that.
For real?
Someone has to lie down naked next to the patient.
He has to stay all night, otherwise it will not work.
And the volunteer must come from three generations of Bretons.
You're lucky, I'm such a person.
I don't think it will be possible.
I think so.
No one will join until tomorrow and I asked the head nurse Patrick,
who said: "No problem, stay with your friend, boy."
That is my song.
Listen.
Yes...
Do you know it?
You are not really sick.
Enough. We are going to sleep.
I forgot. The most important.
Otherwise your fever will not go away.
Good.
We would have a nice life.
What does this mean?
It has been a long time since we drank something here.
Last time, the police caught us.
I wear a dress.
Fast, and stop complaining. Climb over the wall.
I can pass by there. - No, stop it.
Who is his birthday?
Nobody, but I have news.
But first a gift.
Come on, tell me.
I am moving to Paris. Mama and grandmother pay the rent for a year.
A year to succeed. - Ricard!
Succeed in what?
Working, writing, making a movie...
He goes to Paris to make a fortune.
Fortune... I say it,
you must always remain suspicious, whether it is bad or good.
Do you have the necessary talent? - don't get in common.
Not tonight. - Did you know?
He has canceled his rent.
I did not know.
What do you think?
I'm going to miss you.
We will obviously miss you.
You will return as a beaten dog within two months.
Paris is not our thing.
For me it is Paris or nothing.
You will be hurt.
No, I will pay attention. don't worry.
Life is hard there.
It is not like in Rwanda.
I promise that I will pay attention.
don't fool me.
You are cruel.
Be honest, you leave us behind.
"Cruelty...
is not a person who hurts another person,
mutilated or torturing,
cut off his limbs or his head,
or to make him cry.
The real, terrible cruelty
is that of a person who excludes another,
interrupt him like dots in a sentence
or looking away from him,
make a mistake of him when looking,
an estimation error,
a mistake like a letter
that gets crumpled after the beginning,
after writing the date."
Koltès.
I am thrilled to read the books that I give you.
Do you feel the anxiety increase?
I feel the humidity.
Maybe I can't achieve anything because I don't know anyone.
But I also go there for someone.
Who?
A certain Jacques on whom I am in love.
I know few men called Jacques,
but they were all distinguished.
don't you say anything, Fabrice?
Why do I have to say something?
The others already knew it.
Well...
I think it's special
that you can fall in love with a man. I'm impressed.
Personally, I could not do it.
And I feel very sad.
And I think I'm a little jealous of Jacques
and everyone who will love you in Paris, and we must miss you.
Come here, honey.
Stop that.
Is there no music? A sturdy piece.
The time has come, the summer is over.
Ozone or Cactus? - No, not the Cactus.
I showed my tits to the bartender.
Why are we never there when you are so generous?
It is too late for the Ozone. The Contrescarpe?
I come right away.
The Contrescarpe. - See you later.
Go away!
We also love you.
Where do you want that? - On the table.
See you.
Is that all? - What I want you to have.
That's your phone.
I'm going to switch him off.
Jacques, it is me.
I wanted to invite you tonight.
I have good news for you.
You need good news in your situation.
I stay in the vicinity of this telephone booth.
You can call me on the number 99 68 40 35.
Kisses, old love of mine.
I will fuck you with pleasure.
You need to know...
I started with this diary after my final exams.
20 years does not take much space.
I wrote regularly. Not every day, but...
I noticed that I often wrote on Sundays.
But I could not become a writer.
But it is you.
Besides...
the "e" on my typewriter is defective.
I used a "3" on the last pages.
I have checked everything.
All names that remain may be mentioned.
Do you use the real name of Loulou?
No.
I call him "L".
I hope he can ever be proud of his father.
That's stupid.
Nobody should be proud of his father.
I hope he can ever forgive me.
I did well with him, did not I?
I mean...
We have done well.
Isabelle and I were a good team.
Okay, Mathieu, friend, I'm going.
Do you have my keys?
Stay a little longer. - No.
We will become emotional and you will tie me up.
I have prepared myself for this. I thought it would end like that.
Tomorrow morning
you don't have to come down alone.
Call the fire department and they can break open the door.
I'll be there. don't worry.
I am not worried.
I'm very tired.
don't be angry. - I don't judge.
I know you don't.
The others...
Starting with my parents.
My damn publisher.
The pot with them.
I hope it comes hard. - don't get mad.
I know.
But hiding my aversion has become too difficult for me.
You live more intensely than you think.
What happened to your dancer?
He was there last night.
And?
He is very beautiful.
Too perfect. And therefore I did not get excited.
I just looked. I hardly touched him. Affordable.
Promise me...
that you will learn to live, friend.